It's Too Good To Be Bad Day

today,
my mom and my lil bro was celebrating their birthday, yeah together. no wonder they hv similar character. i was happy but sad inside. year by year, age will make them older, it's fate but i still feel worry.

 

i sended my short message to my lil bro and still hv no respon yet. i understand his reaction after my recent changes, it's his decision and he has right. but i lost him, i really miss him, and i'm so sorry for whole of previous times tht i can't be his old sis well.

 

i called my mom, congratulated her then told anything tht i want to share till i realized tht i couldn't make her being stress because of my problem. i said i'm okay. i promised her to give any gift she wants in my breakfield period.

 

there was nothing to do in office for a day. i remembered tht someone ever called me (only) as "juru ketik - juru hitung" so i make conclusion tht today i had no more enough word to be typed and numeric to be counted. oke.

 

no intense communication in our office circle, i understand and i accept it, try to enjoy it. haha. the good news is, when ur presence isn't noticed, it's relieved, u'll be free and u're boss of ur self, tht's wht i just feel now. i only need to hold out for next three days. wait, 2 days i mean, because my best work partner will come next Wednesday. can't wait for him longer, he is the best 'teacher'.

 

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then i was re-thinking, is it true that today is a bad day? i had much breakfast this morning, even there was special menu Martabak India in our table. when my lunch packmeal didn't move my appetite, someone sended me a cup of noddle. it's a gift, isn't it? i didn't need to worry being hungry all day along when out of there some people must think hardly to get money for their meal. still feeling bad of ur day, nana? :(

 

then, when i still remembered and congratulated my birthday's mom and lil bro, it means i still hv family completely. nana, have u ever see in television or read in book that there're many people live alone without their family and they still survive. do u?

about my work, hmmm...

i get salary every month to buy anything and enough saved in bank. i hv a spare times (a lot) in my office hours so i can read, make a connection, listen music, and other (un)improtant things to do. i hv a nice and cute subordinate. they still can make me hard laugh when i cant smile in another room. i hv a lot of -very huge- friends here. they'll protect and entertain me every chance we meet. i get my own room free with full of facilities when some friend in big city need to cost their salary to rent a boarding house. dont u think it's fun, nana?

 

i said to my self, listen well please nana...

"why dont u gratefully thank to Allah after all of these times, u hv blessed days, great times, precious moments, and still do u feel tht it's a bad day? wake up soon!"

 

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March 21st, 2015 - 06.15 pm
Mess Asoka

[forgive for all messy grammar here, i just need to throw my heart trash but i cant write it freely expresive in Bahasa Indonesia]

 

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oke, after i write this, i'll get up, change my office clothes without taking shower -u know i still dislike thus activity- . i will go out to buy fried rice first, yes i have to be happy. today is too good to be a bad day!